Is there a period in my life I would consider “the good old days”?
The short answer? No.
My early childhood years were carefree and fun. As I look back, I realize our family had very little in terms of money and stuff but I had everything because I had a family that loved me and made me feel safe and valued. I recognize not everyone receives such a rare and special gift. But kids have no control over their own lives and I always wanted to do my own thing!
The teen years, lots of awkward nerdiness – don’t wanna go back there, don’t hardly even want to think about it!
Twenties and thirties – a time for spreading my wings and making my own decisions, some of them very wrong. There were lots of changes, and some major life bumps, marriage, divorce, learning how to live a single life, then re-marrying and starting a family. I was overwhelmed with joy to have a baby, then two years later another baby and three years later a third baby! Early years with kids were unbelievably busy with little sleep but much joy and happiness. I became a Christ-follower at 39.
Forty – that number felt like hitting a wall, a big number, the realization that my life, statistically, was more than half over! These years were good as kids grew and my world got bigger, God sent friends, allowed some challenges and different opportunities for learning and growth.
Fifties, sailed by, full of work, really enjoying the years of raising teens and young adults, celebrating my kids steps to independence. Working full-time brings increased income and freedom to travel and enjoy more of what life has to offer.
Sixties, another big number! I am in the final years of my life. Although I do not know when God will call me home my body reminds me that it’s all downhill from here. But so what – I’m just getting closer to heaven!
I am blessed with good health, I get to live in a beautiful part of the world, the beach is 15 minutes away and the sun is shining most days. I have the love of family and friends, I eat every day, I have a home to live in where I feel comfortable and safe. Compared to most of our world I have it all and I am humbled by this and grateful beyond words!
As I look back over the decades of my life it has just kept getting better and better. Not because of stuff but because God has been so very gracious to me. I feel more secure about who I am, my talents and abilities, more confident with each passing year. I care less what others may think and realize more and more the value and importance of the people God brings into my life. Stuff, achievement, acquisition, position, recognition, power – all of these are less important to me daily. I realize I brought nothing into this world and will take nothing out with me; that I need to invest my time, energy and talent into doing what I love with the people I love. My desire is to leave a vast legacy of happy memories, to ease the burdens of as many as I can in some way and to share the joy and wisdom God has given me with others.
Is there a time in my life I consider the “good old days”, that I would like to return to? Nah! Right now is just right!